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pixiecrinkle) wrote2004-03-31 11:44 am
pixiecrinkle) wrote2004-03-31 11:44 am
This is probably bad, but I don't care.
We have these "service recognition" lunches here at work. If you've been here a certain length of time, they invite you to a lunch and give you a gift with the logo on it. I've been here three years, so I was supposed to go today.
I made myself RSVP weeks ago, because I knew I would come up with some excuse not to go. But, I'm still sitting here at my desk rather than sitting down there, when it started 15 minutes ago. When I was in the communications department, I felt like it was part of my job to put on a happy face and go to these things. Ever since I moved to IT, I've felt more like "one of the masses." So I feel I can skip this. I know I'm rationalizing, but:
-these luncheons serve as an excuse for the one person here I truly can't stand to go flitting about acting as if he is *so* *busy* even though they were his idea
-I strongly doubt they remembered to come up with vegetarian food, since they didn't at the holiday party, when there were far more vegetarians than just me there.
-I couldn't find anyone else who was going
-I don't really have time to sit there and listen to speeches for an hour and a half
So, I'll sit here coding and grab some grilled cheese later. That will ultimately make me happier. If it doesn't start raining, maybe I'll even take a jaunt down to the mall for lunch.
I just feel guilt because I know someone will notice my absence later. And I never feel like "I didn't want to go" is a good enough excuse for missing stuff. I need to get over that.
I made myself RSVP weeks ago, because I knew I would come up with some excuse not to go. But, I'm still sitting here at my desk rather than sitting down there, when it started 15 minutes ago. When I was in the communications department, I felt like it was part of my job to put on a happy face and go to these things. Ever since I moved to IT, I've felt more like "one of the masses." So I feel I can skip this. I know I'm rationalizing, but:
-these luncheons serve as an excuse for the one person here I truly can't stand to go flitting about acting as if he is *so* *busy* even though they were his idea
-I strongly doubt they remembered to come up with vegetarian food, since they didn't at the holiday party, when there were far more vegetarians than just me there.
-I couldn't find anyone else who was going
-I don't really have time to sit there and listen to speeches for an hour and a half
So, I'll sit here coding and grab some grilled cheese later. That will ultimately make me happier. If it doesn't start raining, maybe I'll even take a jaunt down to the mall for lunch.
I just feel guilt because I know someone will notice my absence later. And I never feel like "I didn't want to go" is a good enough excuse for missing stuff. I need to get over that.