the week from hell

So now, I'm only one week behind in my Java class. However, I still don't have the program done. I don't know how I think I'm going to have this done by Monday. After then, I can't turn it in at all. The basic skeleton is all there, there's just some passing back and forth of array records (objects) & such that I need to work out. I'll print it out tomorrow at work and I guess work on it on paper this weekend. Yuck.

As I was telling STS this evening, I have a conundrum about why I'm in school in the first place. Ostensibly, I am in school to get the programming degree, hence a programming job, which will earn me more money than I earn now, which will help me pay off my debt (ironically, from the first degree). Then, the plan is to save up money, so that I can do something I really want to do, like open a restaurant, or write books. However, am I just wasting time now, by not doing something more along the lines of advancing those goals? It's a spiral I tell you!!!!

I hate October. It seems every year that I'm way too busy all month, and before you know it, it's grey and rainy and depressing out. I can't keep up with my own life right now, which is making the depressing part worse.

And I really don't want to be alone right now, which really sucks. I hope this weekend at the fifth Denison reunion turns out well, because I've been ready to scrap it for a day or two now. There's one person going who I really want to see though. Otherwise, it's just more reminders of how I don't know anyone anymore from when I was there, or who had anything close to the same experience as me. Oh well.

Methinks I've had a tad too much vodka to be on here right now (Grey Goose, how I love thee!!!!). So, goodnight it is, for now...

Friday Five

Stolen from somewhere...

1. Name five things in your refrigerator.
Leftover soup, soymilk, mesclun mix, tempeh, tonic water.

2. Name five things in your freezer.
Frozen entrees, ravioli, leftover squash soup, leftover veggie chili, leftover heavy cream family dinner dishes.

3. Name five things under your kitchen sink.
trash bags, fire extinguisher, grocery bags, tool set, paper cups

4. Name five things around your computer.
at work: wacom tablet, an orange, horoscope calendar (leo), miniature space needle, spillproof lidded tea cup
at home: wacom tablet, bills, stacks of homework, pink Todd Oldham desk lamp, photos to be scanned

5. Name five things in your medicine cabinet.
Makeup, hair elastics, essential oils, moisturizer with SPF, hairbrush
(Medicine doesn't live in the medicine cabinet at my house. :-))

Another five...

from serenejournal

1. Name five fictional characters you identify with in some way (optional: tell why).
Lily Bart in "The House of Mirth" (or any other number of strong people I'd love to change the fate of)
Miranda in "Sex and the City" (I'm *so* not Charlotte, no matter what Magpie and STS say!)
the protagonist in Juliana Hatfield's song "Choose Drugs" (at least, the me of a few years ago)
Anyone in Reality Bites, Kicking & Screaming and any of the other movies in the "what the hell am I doing with my life vein"
Ramona Quimby, Age 8 (well, then, at least)
This was hard!

2. Name five foods that really make a party:
Hummus (it's required)
Black Bean Pizza
Stuffed Mushrooms
Spinach Artichoke Dip
automat76's veggie cream cheese

3. Name five people you talk to on the phone on a regular/frequent basis.
My mom
automat76
STS
yerpretty
people at work

4. Name five stores/shops you would miss if they closed (optional: tell why).
the Volunteers of America on Indianola
Curio-a-Go-Go (for those last minute gifts!)
New York & Company (bulk clothing shopping, for me at least)
The Body Shop
On Paper(so good for drooling over fountain pens I can't afford, and supplying me with fancy papers for art projects.

5. Name five things you want(ed) to get done today (optional: pick one and go do it now).
finish the Java program!!!!!
send email to print shop about cover stock for cookbook (done!)
pack for this weekend
finish laying out the cookbook
schedule hair, dentist & eye appts.